Note 11 is a bit lengthy but I feel its something that needs to be expresses and talked about. In the wake of current race wars, clashes on political views, and being on the brink of total chaos, brings up the issue of being uncomfortable with living and coexisting with people who are different in environments that are culturally diverse. Its time to realize that there is no need to hate or fear those who are different. Sit and learn from those who challenge or contradict your way of living. Although it will be uncomfortable, moments of clarity when opening up perspective only benefits you in the long run. Transformation and knowledge only comes when placed in circumstances that challenge your point of view. Hate is dangerous, infectious, and unnecessary. We all can learn from the experiences of one another and that learning process never ends. Just because there hasn’t been any studies or documentation of a persons experiences based on popular opinion doesn’t means its invalid or untrue. Sit and listen. There is so much we can learn from one another. There are things that happen that some don’t know about and things that need to be said that aren’t being talked about. There is always space to dialogue about the things that are going on respectfully without undermining or demeaning the lives of the people who are underrepresented (especially).
When its time to press forward its time to press forward. Stop looking back, to your sides, or any direction but straight ahead. There is power in your stance to press against the odds and the struggle. Keep going. Its time for that transformation to show its face. Move forward.
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Opening up your perspective is uncomfortable. You’ll get confused, angry, bitter, and doubtful, but you will learn about yourself and the world you live in. You will become better and more accepting of people and ideas. Opening up your perspective will make you more comfortable with who you are and what you believe. Open your perspective.
Love is complex and love is diverse. Love is individual and love is multifaceted. One must love oneself and love another. Love does not need reasons to exist. Love is accepting, it is patient, and it is unconditional.
Love is not like other emotions. Love is active. Love is a process and love progresses. Love takes time. Once love is reached, however, it must be maintained with sacrifices and compromises because, if you haven’t noticed, we are trying to love people of different lives, cultures, lifestyles, pet peeves, and experiences (when building relationships). We are trying to build love and acceptance. Love cannot just be left alone or forgotten. Once love is built than taking it down causes major psychological issues. Love goes all in. But love also gets tired. Love must be mutual.
Love for oneself is as important as loving someone else. You are the most important part of your life. Loving yourself is extremely essential to your growth, prosperity, and progress. Knowing that without you there is no life to live is what makes love so pivotal. Its not selfish to put your own well being first, its necessary.
Continue in love. Progress in love. Understand in love. Love is needed. Continue to love.
Pulling back from giving 100%. Pulling back from helping and empathizing. Pulling back to save myself, to save my energy. From doing everything. I’m pulling back because I see and I feel too much. I hope too much, I love too much. I pull back because I care…too much. I’m tired so I have to pull back. I can feel it, pulling myself back. It’s really uncomfortable, but in order to not panic or stress out from overexerting myself, I pull back.
Motivation for this post:
Note 9: While I’m waiting for my mighty story to get published on my explanation of what anxiety has been like for me, I’ll simply write this note on the importance and awareness of those who struggle mentally.
It isn’t fun to have any mental illness, but for me specifically anxiety has been at its worse. Overthinking, believing the negative thoughts, driving myself insane, its not intentional or a joke. At times its just dormant like its gone and as soon as a trigger comes, it awakens like a beast in its sleep. But, I would have to say that nothing is impossible and having new experiences coming my way has challenged me to learn to react to triggers. That in itself has helped and progressed me in my mental health healing.
As I continuously see mental health awareness come more and more out in the open, I would like to encourage those who struggle with their mental health to get help if you need to. Talk to someone. The person doesn’t even have to be a professional. Talk to someone who loves you. I’m always here to talk too! Don’t drown in the darkness of your mind.
Note 8: Money seems to be the motivation for people being in specific situations or having certain jobs. Money seems to be the reason why people do things to others (good or bad), but since having been employed for around 2 months now, I noticed that money doesn’t motivate me. Deciding to be happy and stable emotionally, mentally, and physically is more important and if the job im doing isn’t doing that then its time to move on and do something thats better for me no matter how good I might be getting paid. After graduating I noticed that I never put myself first, I always put my studies over my own well being but that stops now and forever. If I see that something isn’t helping me improve or aid in the growth of my positive self-image I need to move on.
Surface even at your lowest point. Surface when everything is caving in. Surface because there is no where to go but up, toward the surface. Where power is, and opportunity. Go to where there is healing.
She is becoming and no one can stop her progress. She is transforming, becoming something more than she ever imagined. Like the butterfly, she built her cocoon, but before anyone could realize how long shes been away, she broke out, starting from her mind, her old ways shedding like a snake’s scales, away and left like old news. She is becoming. She has made herself into something great. From the scars of her psyche, to the bruises pounding her heart, she made it. Althought she wanted to sit and enjoy the evergreens of complacency, she got up, and there she started her process…of becoming.