Posted in Creative Writing, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Mental Health

I Am Still A Masterpiece

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I am a masterpiece…

Despite the misaligned parts of me…

the depths of my shadow make me feel like a black hole…a never ending cycle of unfortunate events.

I am a masterpiece…

Despite the unwarranted attachments to the ideals and ideas that resemble the finish line of what I’ve been chasing after.

The messy boundaries, the tsunami of emotions that overpower the logical parts of me.

I am still a masterpiece…

Even after the labels, stamps, post-its, and reminders that maybe I wasn’t born to be.

Maybe the symptoms, sleepless nights, ruminating thoughts, or the clouds I ride to hide from certain parts of me.

I. Am. A. Masterpiece.

No matter who I’m with, or what I’ve done. No matter the sicknesses, or shame, or guilt, or grief.

The carefully crafted intricacies of who I am, the paint strokes of my personality, the network of veins, the heart that pumps blood, feels in bright red, my eyes that see, nose that smells, tongue that taste. All that I am is immeasurable. Unable to fit comfortably by the shackles of definitions.

The universe sleeps within my soul. I am more.

My energy contagious, spreading peace with every breath I breathe. This is me.

I am a masterpiece.

Posted in Confessions, Creative Writing, Mental Health, Power, Reflection, Self-Care, Self-Talk

The Love I Seek is Also Seeking Me

Is anyone else as exhausted as I am?

The more I reflect, the more I realize how much energy it’s taking to process the grief that’s these past three years has weighed on my body, my heart, and my spirit. And even though I push past every time, I’m still tired.

Is anyone else like me? Where navigating the World is overwhelming some days. Where I try my best, but still it’s hard not to compare my life to others. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to live life as if I was another?

Where you asks the questions that don’t matter, but still blossom into ruminating thoughts. Like, will they accept me? Or, Can someone love me, too? Maybe, will I ever really feel free to be myself, 100% myself, without worrying that I’m too weird or different for the eyes that witness me? Perhaps it’s the sicknesses that plague my body that dictate my fate after all?

Who can love me, too? I ask myself as I wake up in an anxious puddle of sweat dripping down my burdened shoulders.

Maybe, just maybe it’s possible. The love. The acceptance. The bliss of freedom to be myself without fear.

I ask the universe to allow me that freedom.
Right now, I manifest that freedom. I am free from the drought of shame, grief, and guit. I am worthy of the love I seek because it seeks me too. I am ready to receive.

Posted in Confessions, Creative Writing, Love, Mental Health, Potential and Worth, Reflection, Self-Talk, What Just Happened: Personal Anecdotes

Healing Letters of Reflection: Unspoken Words

Healing Letters of Reflection
[Topics- Codependency and Anxious Attachment]

I understand now. I understand what I was meant to learn. How I was in pain too. But, I was trying to make you love me, even though you didn’t want to. I’m sorry. You were in pain like me. The cycles of run and chase. I saw something I knew I could love, so I latched onto that feeling. I was wrong though. Because, I was in pain and needed to manage and take care of my heart first. I needed to love myself more and I didn’t. I wanted to love you because I saw myself in you. Maybe loving you would help me love myself? No. That’s not how that works. Being alone was scary. It was a step into an oblivion of nothingness. What am I to do with all this pain I feel into an unknown future? Can I do it? Wow, do I even believe in myself? Who am I? What do I even want? It’s the ideas, the potential, the feeling. It’s the fear of changing into a person I don’t know.

…Well I’m that person now. The person I was scared to become because, who is she? She can see. She gets it. She understands. 

I understand now. That I was in pain. I was panicking. Trauma responses left and right. Trying to fix. Fixate. Control. Overexplain. Change someone else. I was the one who needed changing. But, that’s okay…because I understand now. So, thank you. You helped me to see, because everything was foggy back then. I hope everything is good with you. I hope you can understand, too. 

Activity

Write a letter to someone who helped you to grow.

Posted in Creative Writing, Love, Potential and Worth, Power

I Met Peace Today

A spoken work peace in accessing peace following times I’ve struggled with mental health. Identifying and defining what peace means to me. Watch the video here on YouTube!

I met peace today.  I didn’t expect it to feel this way. An all encompassing power of surrender.  A knowing. A feeling. Being.  A state of awareness, of falling like a bird knowing the safety of freedom from the wings that will save me. 

Trusting self. Knowing self.  One with consciousness. No more asking questions of  “who am I?” but only “I am”.  Basking in a green vibrant meadow filled with an ocean of flowers. A kiss from passing wind. Sitting. One with my energy. Flowing. Existing. Awakening. Comfort and confidence in self. Moments gratitude. 

Witnessing one of nature’s wonders.  A waterfall of crystal clear bliss. A mountain of stern certainty. Mimicking the wonders of the moon and sun.  Peace.  Surrendering to right now.  Present.  Just as it suggest, a gift of divine intervention.

A greeting. A congradulations. A integration of self.  Unconditional love of self.  Integrating trauma, self-awareness and transformation. Alchemy. An equal give and take.  Balance.  Understanding pain.

The student. The teacher. Connection. Compassion. Love.  Oneness with love.  Love of self is love of others. Freedom and liberation. Silence of the mind.  Being the crafter. Being the creator.  Stroking the pen as I see fit to write my story. 

Peace.  It’s me. I am peace. Peace is inside of me.  

-SparklyWarTanks   

Posted in Creative Writing, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Potential and Worth, Power, Reflection, Self-Care, Self-Talk

My Little Seed

I remember planting this seed and thinking it would never grow. Pressured by the expectation that I’m doing something wrong, I was plagued with thoughts that if it didn’t show it’s growth it would be my fault.

But, although my expectations were low, it grew anyway and the tears I shed when it showed its little leaves made me realize I’m okay.

I’m okay because the seed is planted and as long as I have even the slightest hope that it would grow, it just might grow.

I just might grow, too.

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Dear Depression

With every breath in me and all of my energy, I push past the parts of myself that tell me I can’t.
Even on the mornings I ask “why?” I embody the character of resiliency.
“I am” despite the thoughts that say “I’m not.”
I define every day with what living means.
I draw it in cursive along the walls of my subconscious.
I deserve peace and I manifest it in every moment.
Although I need time to get my pain together, my strength always takes the lead.
What I have is the power those thoughts try to take from me.
But, even when I feel I’m at my lowest when the fear feels bigger than the triumph,
I get up.
I get up. Every. Single. Time.
Why? Because “I am.”

Posted in Creative Writing, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Potential and Worth, Power, Self-Care, Self-Talk, The Mighty, The Pencil Case on The Mighty

Pencil Case Prompts: Crafting a Superhero

Ever thought what it would be like to be a superhero? How would you go about crafting your superhero persona?

Activity

-What would you call yourself?
-What would your superpower be?
-What would be your catchphrase or superhero slogan?!
Feel free to be as creative as possible. You’re the superhero!

My Reflection

If I were a superhero, my name would be Empathycia and my superpower would be the ability to spread peace wherever I go and to whoever I speak to. My slogan would be “within every heart there is a capacity to feel and know peace.”

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Posted in Creative Writing, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Love, Mental Health, Potential and Worth, Power, Quotes, Reflection, Self-Care, Self-Talk

I love You.

Dear Nina,
Even with the struggle and layers that come with you, I love you.
Even with sickness and daily challenges, I love you.
Every morning, I love you.
When you lay your head to rest, I love you.
When you don’t have energy, I love you.
When you don’t feel accomplished, I love you.
When you doubt your worth, I love you.
When you can’t look at yourself in the mirror, I love you.
In your frustration, I love you.
When you think no one cares, I love you.
When you think no one will fully accept you, I love you.
When your mind is being mean and destructive, I love you.
When you think you are unworthy of love, I still love you.
Even when the thought of love is hard for you, I will always love you.
No matter what is stopping you from loving you, I AM the part of you that will always love you.

-SparklyWarTanks

Posted in Creative Writing, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Love, Mental Health, Potential and Worth, Power, Quotes, Self-Care, Self-Talk

A Letter of Power: I Choose Myself

Dear Nina,

You are valued and worthy.

There is no need to continue to adapt and adjust to other people’s needs while not receiving any love and support back.
There is no need to beg others to treat you with respect and continuously try to understand them while they are intentionally misunderstanding you.
There is no need to blame yourself every time something goes wrong.
There is no need to wait on someone else to see how much of a good person you are.
You do not need to wait for someone to make space for you when you continuously make space for them.
You do not need to be validated or to prove your worth.
When someone shows you over and over that they don’t care, believe them.
You value transparency, honesty, and support. Don’t accept anything less than what you deserve.
Keep your circle small with people who love you and care for you as much as you love and care for them.
Don’t give anyone excuses for their behavior not meeting the bare minimum standards.
Your worth is not dependent on how they treat you or their ability to change. They will not change. Choose you. You deserve to choose you every time.

With Love and Power,
SparklyWarTanks

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Pencil Case Prompts: Reflection

Setting and following through with goals can be tiring, time-consuming, and requires dedication. Deciding why a goal is important can help to navigate the likelihood of you following through with accomplishing what you want to do.

Activity

Why is setting goals important to you?
-Why is setting goals important?
-What value do goals have in helping you get where you want to go?

My Reflection

Goals are important to me because they help me to stay grounded and focused. Without a focal point to channel my overactive imagination, I typically sleep or dwell on wanting to do more without knowing how. Goals help me to feel a sense of purpose and accomplishment.

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Write a thank you letter to the biggest lesson you’ve learned this year.

The letter can be written to a person, place, thing, or idea and can be written as creativity as possible. It can rhyme and mimic a poem, or simply be a list of things you’ve learned. The letter can be about a lesson you’re still learning or have learned earlier this year.

Questions to get you thinking:
-What is the lesson?
-Why is the lesson important to you?
-What has the lesson taught you about yourself?
-Has the lesson changed your perspective in any way?
-What does self-care and self-reflection look like after learning this lesson?

The goal of this letter is to reflect and move forward in grace as you progress further into this year.

My Reflection

Dear Change and Transformation,

Thank you for allowing me to see everything that is me. From the sensitivities to the pain that binds me. I am more than I ever thought I can be, and that is creating something huge inside of me.

I thought I was nothing and constantly needed validation. But, I’m learning to be still and take one moment at a time.

I am important, too. And that’s big coming from me. I don’t have to fix everything to be seen.

I can smile and be happy.
I can manifest abundance.
I am beautiful.
I am not too different or unworthy.
I can be loved, too.

The more space I make within myself to manifest the thoughts that can shape a better tomorrow, I welcome. I welcome peace and acceptance.

These are all from you Change and Transformation, so thank you.

-Nina/SparklyWarTanks

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