Posted in Confessions, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Mental Health, Reflection, Self-Care, Self-Talk, What Just Happened: Personal Anecdotes

Free Write: The Perceptions of Mental Illness And My Fear of Abandonment

How’s everyone’s day been? For me I’ve been struggling.

I didn’t realize how hard this pandemic has affected me until I started to reconnect with others. Having perceptions of safety and holding to my boundaries made sense when I built a safe place alone, but it becomes real when something “triggers your inner untapped wound”, and for me its my fear of abandonment. The thought that no matter what, everyone will leave eventually or no matter how hard I try no one can reciprocate the love I feel for them especially when I love them…a lot. I tend to run away in embarrassment because “I love someone who can’t love me too”.

This in my nervous system manifest as PTSD, anxiety, and a slab of persistent depressive disorder.

I talk a lot about reflection and healing, but that’s because I know how it feels to experience a mental health condition. Healing my nervous system has been my biggest challenge so far in my life. If you know what it’s like to have a mental health condition, know that I see you, I feel you, and I love you. This journey doesn’t make you weak because it isn’t for the weak.

Just the idea that I can be perceived as “mentally ill” has kept me from exploring new relationships, but I don’t want that for myself. I deserve to be loved by others. I can be loved by others. I will be loved by others. I’ve healed a lot over the past two and half years, but THIS WOUND? It really HURTS.

In this new season of my life, I know I have to work on this pain specifically and I know it’s going to HURT A LOT. Pushing myself to open up fully, be transparent, and unapologetically love without fear will break me to build me back up.

I know I will make mistakes and some people won’t understand me, but that’s OK. I still want to spread unconditional love and kindness to others.

Thank you for reading. Continue to journey with me ❤️.

Posted in Love, Mental Health, Reflection, Self-Care

Holiday Reflection

A major lesson I’ve learned this year is that I have the capacity to unconditionally love; myself and others. The pain that comes with realizing that others don’t always feel the same love for me has been really painful yet transformative, however. I realized that everyone’s on a different journey and have different experiences that don’t always include me, but that’s OK,  I still want to continue to practice unconditional love even if that’s from a distance. Everyone deserves to be loved and receive love in return despite that discrepancy. 

Affirmation: I am love. No matter how others feel about me, it’s still OK for me to love myself and spread love to others. 

For those celebrating a holiday today or going to celebrate a holiday soon, stay safe and enjoy 💝.

Posted in Confessions, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Mental Health, Reflection, The Mighty, The Pencil Case on The Mighty

Pencil Case Prompts: Write a comforting letter to yourself.

Activity

Write a comforting letter to yourself.

My Reflection

I’ll go first 💌

Dear Nina,

I know it’s been a really rough couple of weeks and you feel alone, exhausted, burnt out, and the depression is feeling heavier than usual. I know your thoughts have been racing and you’re wondering if things will get better. I know you’ve been yearning for something you think is impossible to experience, but I want you to know that you’re doing the best you can and it’s OK not to feel OK right now. It’s OK to feel negative emotions sometimes. I want you to know that I’m proud of you. You’ve accomplished so much and you’re worthy of all the happiness and love in the world. You are not void of new experiences and opportunities and this is definitely not the end-all for you. You are so much more and have so much to offer this world. You are amazing, beautiful, and talented beyond measure. I love you so much. We’ll get through this together. You deserve to be celebrated.

Love,
SparklyWarTanks

Posted in Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Reflection, The Mighty

Reflections and Childhood Misconceptions

Activity

What is something you believed as a child that you learned was untrue as an adult?

Reflection

I’ll go first!

For some reason when I was kid, I thought that my parents didn’t sleep and watched over me while I slept instead. I also thought that everyone had similar lives and were like me. Since I was highly sensitive I thought everyone got overstimulated sometimes and needed extra alone time. I soon found out these things were indeed NOT true when I got older 😅.

What about you? What misconceptions did you have growing up?


You can also find this prompt in the Chat Space group on The Mighty here.

Posted in Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Mental Health, Power, Reflection, Self-Care, The Mighty, The Pencil Case on The Mighty

Pencil Case Prompts: Goals, Lists, and Important Experiences

Activity

What’s an important experience you’ve had this year?

As we head into the home stretch of 2022, let’s reflect on something important that we’ve experienced thus far. It can be an experience you’ve learned from or an event/moment that’s impacted you positively or negatively.

My Reflection

I’ll go first! An important experience I’ve had this year was getting closer to my mom and building a safe relationship with her.

Check out this prompt here in The Pencil Case on The Mighty.


Activity

Make a list of three words or phrases describing your goals for the end of the year.

My Reflection

My three phrases are:

1. Content with my progress.
2. Calm and at peace with myself.
3. Organized and ready to take on another year.

What words are on your list? 🙂🌟

Check out this prompt here in The Pencil Case on The Mighty.


Activity

Write a reminder list to guide you through the week ahead.

Let’s prepare for the week ✍️.

Either in your own journal or in the comments below, write a reminder list of important things you want to remember or accomplish this week.

My Reflection

Here is my list:

  1. Therapy
  2. ETS Presentation with NAMI-NYC
  3. Food Shopping
  4. Paying the bills.
  5. Mighty work
  6. Sparkly work and projects

Check out this prompt here in The Pencil Case on The Mighty.

Posted in Creative Writing, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Reflection, The Mighty

Poetry Writing: Freedom and Success

Activity

Write a short poem describing what freedom and success mean to you.

What thoughts come to mind? Any images or ideas come up?

My Poem: Successfully Free

I’m encompassed in peace.

Silent.

Still.

Powerful.

A green pasture.

No more to-dos.

I only exist.

My feet burrowed in the dirt.

The sky without clouds, only blue.

Not a worry left in my body.

I realized that I made it.

This is success. This is freedom.

This prompt is also in the Conquer Your Mind group on The Mighty here.

Posted in Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Mental Health, Reflection, Self-Care, The Pencil Case on The Mighty

Pencil Case Prompts: Check-Ins and Free Writes

Activity

How was your week?

How was this week for everyone? Any highlights, challenges, or victories you would like to share?

My Reflection

My week was OK. I’m proud of myself for getting all of my work done! I’m struggling with insomnia again, though 😩. I’m currently powering through the tiredness and ruminating thoughts.

What about you?
Feel free to share in the comments below 💌

You can find this post in The Pencil Case on The Mighty here.


Activity

In the comments below, in your own Pencil Case post, or in a personal journal take a minute or two to just write ✏️. You can write about what’s been frustrating or challenging for you recently, something that you’re proud of yourself for accomplishing, a goal that you have, a poem that you wrote or something that you created, perhaps even a word of encouragement or what’s been helping to keep you inspired or motivated.

My Reflection

Here’s my free write!

Today I want to share about what I’m working on in terms of my growth and progress. I went to therapy recently and realized I have such a hard time being proud of myself and not rationalizing my achievements as expectation. My goal for the rest of the year is to look at my accomplishments as wins no matter how “big” or “small” and allow myself to feel good when I do something great. I deserve to feel good.

You can find this post in The Pencil Case on The Mighty here.

Posted in Mental Health, Reflection, Self-Care, The Mighty, The Pencil Case on The Mighty

Pencil Case Prompts: Victories and Mindful Moments

Activity

What’s a challenge you’ve worked extra hard to overcome?

Let’s share our victories together today!

Is there a challenge you’ve been faced with that’s taken a bit more effort and consistency to work through or overcome? What has that challenge been like for you? Has the challenge taught you anything thus far?

My Reflection

For me, my biggest challenge was learning how to love myself and put my needs first. It’s taken so much work on my part, and I’m still working on it, but I’ve made so much progress in the past three years! I’m so proud of myself 🌻.

What about you?

**Find this post here in The Pencil Case on TheMighty.com


Activity

A 3 Step Mindful Moment: Gratitude and Intentions

When you come across this message take these three mindful steps:

Step 1: Pause ⏸️ what you are doing and take three deep breaths. Count for three seconds as you inhale and three seconds as you exhale.

Step 2: List two people, places, things or ideas you are grateful for.

Step 3: Set one positive intention for the rest of your day.

Note: Feel free to share your gratitude list and intention for the day in the comments below if you would like 🌟🙂.

My Reflection

Here is my gratitude list and intention for the day:

I am grateful for my bed and food to eat when I’m hungry.

My intention for today is to go slow and listen to my body as I navigate high anxiety.

My affirmation: I am allowed to take my time. There is no rush for me to get through the day.

**Find this post here in The Pencil Case on TheMighty.com

Posted in Events, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Mental Health, Reflection, Self-Care, The Mighty

NAMI-NYC July Virtual Expressive Arts Event and Mighty Reflection: Feelings of “Home” and Self-Care

So very excited to announce the NAMI-NYC Expressive Arts workshop event I will be hosting at the end of the month!  This event will be via Zoom and on the NAMI-NYC website. You can find the link in the flyer here. On the day of the event click the Expressive Arts Zoom link for July 30th.

If you have any questions or concerns feel free to send me an email. The time of the event is in Eastern Standard Time.

**I will share any updates or changes and keep everyone posted. 
Here are some details for the event:

Title
Me and My Self-Care

Description
“Me and My Self-Care” is a creative and fun event focused on reflecting about self-care, love and what “home” feels like to us. Starting with an ice breaker, we will sketch an image and write about our favorite type of self-care. The main activity will then be to pick one of two activities. The first activity will be to draw a self-care toolbox with a list of your favorite and most helpful self-care practices and the second activity will be to write a poem describing what “home” feels like to you and what it’s like for you to experience love, support and acceptance.  Lastly, we will close by sharing our works of art.

Materials
Paper, writing utensils (pen, pencil, markers, or crayons).

Hope to see you there!


**Sneak peek for my NAMI-NYC event activity.

Activity

What does “home” feel like to you?

If you wanted describe what “home” feels like to you, what words would you use? Does the feeling have a color, an experience, or remind you of a person? Is home a place or an idea?

My Reflection

For me, home is when I feel at peace and when I’m calm. Home is when I’m with my family and friends and I feel safe. Home is when I fully accept myself for who I am. Home is in the present moment.

What about you?


Find this activity in the Self-Care Lounge group on The Mighty here as well.

Posted in Mental Health, Reflection, Self-Care, Self-Talk, The Mighty

Choose A Heart!

Activity

Choose a heart and follow the prompt that goes with that heart 🧡💛❤️.

❤️: Finish this sentence: I show up for myself by __________.

💛: What are three things you are grateful for this week? 

🧡: Write a thank you note to something or someone that’s had a positive impact on your mental health.

My Reflection

I’ll go first! 
I’ll challenge myself and do all three 😁.

❤️: I show up for myself by knowing my limits and doing what’s best for me even if that means saying no to others. 

💛: Three things I am grateful for this week are my dog who lifts my spirits everytime I leave my bedroom, my mom who continues to support me, and my comfy bed where I rest.

🧡: Thank you Kat, Ben and Carla from The Mighty team that continues to support, encourage, and help me to do my best work! 

Your turn! 
Pick a heart ❤️💛🧡.

If you’re up to it, feel free to share in the comments below 💌


You can find this prompt and reflection activity in the Let’s Talk Depression group here on The Mighty. Feel free to join the conversation!