To whoever needs this message. Keep going.
Reminder: We are all on different paths as we experience life through the lens of our individual perspectives.
What is for you will find you. Continue to do your best and take one moment at a time. There is no rush or timeline to follow. All that matters is the present moment right now.
Practice this new season/new month mantra with me. We can approach this season together.
“With every step I take I allow myself grace and compassion. I listen to my intuition and I take my time. I’m patient with myself and I protect my heart as I navigate the next season of my life. I remind myself that I am safe as I continue to succeed. I am ready.”
-Bad days don’t make you weak.
-Struggling with your mental health does not make you weak.
-Flare-ups or breakouts from conditions or illnesses does not make you weak.
-Feeling overwhelmed does not make you weak.
-Feeling angry, frustrated, guilty, lonely, hopeless or ashamed does not make you weak.
-Mistakes don’t make you weak.
-Exhaustion or overstimulation does not make you weak.
-Having limits does not make you weak.
-Taking breaks does not make you weak.
-Changing your mind does not make you weak.
-Having needs does not make you weak.
-Sensitivities don’t make you weak.
Is anyone else as exhausted as I am?
The more I reflect, the more I realize how much energy it’s taking to process the grief that’s these past three years has weighed on my body, my heart, and my spirit. And even though I push past every time, I’m still tired.
Is anyone else like me? Where navigating the World is overwhelming some days. Where I try my best, but still it’s hard not to compare my life to others. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to live life as if I was another?
Where you asks the questions that don’t matter, but still blossom into ruminating thoughts. Like, will they accept me? Or, Can someone love me, too? Maybe, will I ever really feel free to be myself, 100% myself, without worrying that I’m too weird or different for the eyes that witness me? Perhaps it’s the sicknesses that plague my body that dictate my fate after all?
Who can love me, too? I ask myself as I wake up in an anxious puddle of sweat dripping down my burdened shoulders.
Maybe, just maybe it’s possible. The love. The acceptance. The bliss of freedom to be myself without fear.
I ask the universe to allow me that freedom.
Right now, I manifest that freedom. I am free from the drought of shame, grief, and guit. I am worthy of the love I seek because it seeks me too. I am ready to receive.
What is something you would like to learn? What are some of your interests? What are you curious about?
I want to learn how to cook better for myself, continue to regulate and manage my anxiety, market my etsy shop better .
Join the conversation here in The Pencil Case on The Mighty.
Take a moment to breathe with me.
Inhale for the count of three through your nose, and exhale for another count of three through your mouth.
Release the stress in your body and relax your muscles.
Check-in with yourself today, okay? You deserve peace and good things too.
Sending love and positive energy your way.
Even during the ebbs and flows of life, the painful moments, the lessons, the bad decisions, the storms, its okay to love yourself. Show yourself some compassion and grace today.
I love you.
Healing Letters of Reflection:
[Topics- Codependency and Anxious Attachment]
I understand now. I understand what I was meant to learn. How I was in pain too. But, I was trying to make you love me, even though you didn’t want to. I’m sorry. You were in pain like me. The cycles of run and chase. I saw something I knew I could love, so I latched onto that feeling. I was wrong though. Because, I was in pain and needed to manage and take care of my heart first. I needed to love myself more and I didn’t. I wanted to love you because I saw myself in you. Maybe loving you would help me love myself? No. That’s not how that works. Being alone was scary. It was a step into an oblivion of nothingness. What am I to do with all this pain I feel into an unknown future? Can I do it? Wow, do I even believe in myself? Who am I? What do I even want? It’s the ideas, the potential, the feeling. It’s the fear of changing into a person I don’t know.
…Well I’m that person now. The person I was scared to become because, who is she? She can see. She gets it. She understands.
I understand now. That I was in pain. I was panicking. Trauma responses left and right. Trying to fix. Fixate. Control. Overexplain. Change someone else. I was the one who needed changing. But, that’s okay…because I understand now. So, thank you. You helped me to see, because everything was foggy back then. I hope everything is good with you. I hope you can understand, too.
Write a letter to someone who helped you to grow.