I love you.
I love you.
Healing Letters of Reflection:
[Topics- Codependency and Anxious Attachment]
I understand now. I understand what I was meant to learn. How I was in pain too. But, I was trying to make you love me, even though you didn’t want to. I’m sorry. You were in pain like me. The cycles of run and chase. I saw something I knew I could love, so I latched onto that feeling. I was wrong though. Because, I was in pain and needed to manage and take care of my heart first. I needed to love myself more and I didn’t. I wanted to love you because I saw myself in you. Maybe loving you would help me love myself? No. That’s not how that works. Being alone was scary. It was a step into an oblivion of nothingness. What am I to do with all this pain I feel into an unknown future? Can I do it? Wow, do I even believe in myself? Who am I? What do I even want? It’s the ideas, the potential, the feeling. It’s the fear of changing into a person I don’t know.
…Well I’m that person now. The person I was scared to become because, who is she? She can see. She gets it. She understands.
I understand now. That I was in pain. I was panicking. Trauma responses left and right. Trying to fix. Fixate. Control. Overexplain. Change someone else. I was the one who needed changing. But, that’s okay…because I understand now. So, thank you. You helped me to see, because everything was foggy back then. I hope everything is good with you. I hope you can understand, too.
Write a letter to someone who helped you to grow.
Have the conversations that need to be had with the people you love. Create solid and supportive relationships with the people you care most about. It’s time to speak up. Needs don’t make you needy. Triggers don’t make you weak. Vulnerability doesn’t make you any less of a person. Build the healthy bonds you deserve.
Ever had a conversation with your higher self, realizing that in those moments the words you speak are also the words you would say to the people you love the most.
Growing in self-love is learning to treat yourself like you would treat someone you love and would want them to be kind to themselves. Encouraging them to keep going and to be strong because you see that in them. As much as you see the strength in them is also the strength that is present in you.
Treat yourself with kindness today. Allow yourself grace through the toughest moment. Remember that emotions don’t make you weak, especially the ones that weigh heavy on your heart.
You are worthy of love and acceptance. No one can take away your strength. No one can strip you of your worth.
I love you.
I met peace today. I didn’t expect it to feel this way. An all encompassing power of surrender. A knowing. A feeling. Being. A state of awareness, of falling like a bird knowing the safety of freedom from the wings that will save me.
Trusting self. Knowing self. One with consciousness. No more asking questions of “who am I?” but only “I am”. Basking in a green vibrant meadow filled with an ocean of flowers. A kiss from passing wind. Sitting. One with my energy. Flowing. Existing. Awakening. Comfort and confidence in self. Moments gratitude.
Witnessing one of nature’s wonders. A waterfall of crystal clear bliss. A mountain of stern certainty. Mimicking the wonders of the moon and sun. Peace. Surrendering to right now. Present. Just as it suggest, a gift of divine intervention.
A greeting. A congradulations. A integration of self. Unconditional love of self. Integrating trauma, self-awareness and transformation. Alchemy. An equal give and take. Balance. Understanding pain.
The student. The teacher. Connection. Compassion. Love. Oneness with love. Love of self is love of others. Freedom and liberation. Silence of the mind. Being the crafter. Being the creator. Stroking the pen as I see fit to write my story.
Peace. It’s me. I am peace. Peace is inside of me.
To my family, my childhood, high school, and college friends/advisors/counselors/teachers/mentors, to those who were in my life for a season or a conversation or two, for those I haven’t talked to in awhile and are due for a conversation or two.
To my followers, supporters, and readers of my blog and sparkly content, to my Mighty Family, and those at NAMI, to anyone whose crossed my path no matter the circumstance, I love you and I’m proud of you.
Not only have you helped me in my journey but you are also doing a great job. Remember that your best is enough. Allow yourself grace and compassion. Whatever it is on your mind, you got it! You can overcome any obstacle. You have me here rooting for you. Sending over positive energy and light. I love you. Keep that head up.
In the process of growth we may come to a standstill in whether we want or are able to face the trauma inside of ourselves. We become afraid of feeling the feelings that are repressed. In those moments we ask ourselves, what do I do with this pain? Unprocessed pain manifests as disease, disorders, attachments, triggers, habits, negativity and other blockages that show us a lack or need in the energy within us. So what, in turn, do we do with the pain in our bodies? We must release it. We are not meant to suffer and hold on to pain for long periods of time. If we survived the process of enduring this pain we are also able to alchemize it. Standing in our power allows us to transform and create something new in the process of releasing the pain that we may be holding. We are the creators of our own realities.
Alchemize your pain and transform into the indestructable being you are. Stand in your power. Allow the pain to be transformed in your favor. Learn the lesson and release the blockage. The lesson turns into an increase in awareness. You have all the abilities to do so. Pain does not define you and does not have to define or dictate your life.
I believe in you.
Even if the odds are great and the challenges overbearing; even if what is in your face seems larger than life; even if the weight is heavy and the future seems bleak all that you are is greater, larger, and stronger than the mountains and hurdles that are placed in your life to stop you.
What you are is more despite those emotions that hold massive pressure in your body.
When I look at you I see a person that can do it. Whatever you see, feel, and want is yours. Take it. Push the mountains to the side. Claim what is yours.
Your joy, peace, and perseverance is yours.
You are not defeated.
Speaking with intention is the first step to manifestation. With talent, skill, and ambition comes bravery and courage to go for what you know you can accomplish. “I can” and “I want” are statements of intention and confidence. Your interests are the gateway to your purpose. Your excitement is the key to that gateway. Empowerment is in the journey of clarity.
You are all you need to step into your season of power.
Speak with intention.
Listen to yourself and how you feel.
Clarity will come when you listen.
Affirmation: I am stepping into my season of clarity, power, and purpose.