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February’s Bulletins: Thinking, Responding, and Gaining Knowledge

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Last month’s bulletin topics were focused on thinking, effective ways of responding, and gaining knowlege while interacting with others. As we move toward a more respectful and effective way of communicating with others we first must listen to what others have to say, don’t just hear to respond, but listen to understand. Contribute to the conversation and effectively come to a consensus. If we are to be more peaceful, logical, and respectful contributors to society we must push to gain perspective and knowledge.

Learn to listen.

Learn to stay quiet.

Learn to understand.

Make connections.

Feel empathy.

Respect people who do not share the same experiences as you.

Posted in Confessions, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Late Night Talks With Nina, Reflection, Self-Care, Self-Talk, Videos

Late Night Talks with Nina: Explaining the Gradual Manifestation of my Anxiety

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As I learn to explain what anxiety is to others, I have to first validate what it is in my head and love myself through it. Anxiety is something I go through everyday and by understanding where it came from, I can treat it and take steps in my healing process.

Posted in Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Late Night Talks With Nina, Potential and Worth, Self-Care, Self-Talk, Videos

Late Night Talks with Nina: 14 Sparkly Reminders for Self-care

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List of 14 reminders referred and read in video for self-care while you get through your days.

  • Love yourself
  • Practice Self-care
  • Be patient with yourself
  • Give yourself gealthy work loads
  • Don’t overthink
  • Say “no” when necessary
  • Give yoyrself credit
  • Sleep at night
  • Eat breakfast..lunch…and dinner
  • Talk posutive to yourself
  • Ask for HELP!!
  • Continuously realize who you are.
  • You are an individual
  • You are talented
  • No one is like you.
  • Make list as to not overload your mind with things to do.
  • Remind yourself that you are worthy, beautiful, and a life worth living.

Take care and be safe.

    Posted in Confessions, Creative Writing, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Potential and Worth, Power, Self-Talk

    I Came to Give Back Hope

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    I remember the time I was struck with insecurities about who I am.
    How I couldn’t explain what I want to do, or who I want to be.
    I remember being stuck…
    Hesitating…
    Putting myself down…
    After I was done doing a bad job at explaining my interests, I then immediately thought, wow, that’s stupid. What you want is not a thing.
    You won’t get anywhere with that. Who does that? You’ve done nothing for yourself to get the unimaginable dream you want to come true.
    And as I began to crush my dreams next to tangible accomplishments of the ones around me, I began to shrink. Shrink so small that I couldn’t see myself anymore. I saw myself in the muck and oil of my current state. I began to grab my aching back and bruised arms, rub the pain from my wrist, and throw up blood from the anxiety and the depression.
    Then I thought, a hope so big brings people bed ridden for dead back to life. A hope that opens closed eyes and ears. A hope of power that flows and pumps blood to my heart every time. The one time I feel a touch of happiness is when I create something.

    While my suffering heart feels myself floating and dispersing into the sea of forgotten faces of capitalistic tendencies, I remember, my dreams is what brought me back to life after my soul left my body..and into an oblivion I went…drowning in fear and regret, I thought I was nothing, but my dreams made me feel something. While my body and soul unite again it’s because of my pencil and my pen.
    I remember why my heart started to beat and the oxygen came back into my lungs.
    I created something.
    Thats what I do.
    I write.
    I dream.
    I’m a motivator for life.
    Living is my motto.

    I remember I was struck with insecurities about who I am, then I thought one more time…I create to give back the life of those whos bodies have left their souls.

    I came to give back hope

    Posted in Confessions, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Self-Care, Self-Talk

    BayArt Article: Tough Love Doesn’t Work for a Perfectionist

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    Perfectionism: Being Tough on Myself

    Since I was a little girl I’ve been a perfectionist. The way I colored in the lines or how my homework had to be neat all the time, showed how hard I was on myself to be my best and do my best. I was tough on myself at a young age. My grades had to be perfect. I was my worst critic and worse enemy. These moments created the negative self-talk habits that eventually evolved into anxiety (but that’s my other story).

    Everyone who knew me was always so surprised at how hard I worked or how much effort I put into things even if that much work wasn’t necessary. I always pushed myself to the limit and challenged myself to be the best I can. This mindset wasn’t always healthy or helpful for me. That five page paper that was supposed to be two pages or those four page notes that was supposed to be one or two was how much more time I put into things I didn’t need to, but let me get to the point. How hard I worked and how much energy I put into the most basic things created in me a monster of perfectionist tendencies that didn’t allow for me to be compassionate to myself.

    Tough Love and Anger

    As I got older I began meeting people (i.e teachers and religious leaders) who believed in using tough love to get across to others. Their lack of soft compassion made me even more hard on myself and more angry that I should be better and doing better. This made me hate them for not seeing how much work I put into things that I did. Phrases like “what happened?”,”You should have done better”, “this is not like you”, you’ll be okay”,”toughen up and do better” and “get better because people are watching you” became extremely toxic to the already monster of perfectionism that drove me crazy daily. I became angry and frustrated. People who used tough love around me made me avoid them, prohibiting me in learning self- love and compassion. I was always on myself and didn’t know how to slow down and rest. When I was struggling, I didn’t know how to tell others. I would convince myself that I’m always supposed to be okay and ready all the time.

    While I did have supportive people in my life, those who used tough love weren’t as effective even if they had good intentions. I appreciate how much I learned about myself, however, though the bumpy roads of my childhood and teen years though those people who showed me tough love.

    Moral of the Story: Takeaways

    Be kind to yourself and others and also show your children that it’s OK to fail. Learning and growing with your failures is important in self-development. I wasn’t accepting of failure and that made me into the perfectionist monster I was. Because I wasn’t compassionate to myself, the lack of compassion from others made me angry and frustrated. I didn’t learn how to slow down till later in life. I didn’t learn the word no till I was 22.
    Self-care and compassion is important. Be compassionate to yourself. Learn self-worth and slow down when you feel yourself working too much. Being the best isn’t necessary as long as you put in how much effort you can. Put in a healthy amount of effort into task. Your worth and your energy is based on you. Know your worth and put a healthy amount of energy into your daily activities. Be kind to yourself and learn to say to yourself “I did a good job. Now I can rest.”

    Also, not everyone reacts positively to tough love so remember to always add compassion and love in your interactions. Some people have daily battles mentally and may take offense to phrases that aren’t helpful in showing them how, what, or when to do better. Be encouraging.

    Find article in link below:

    Realization: Tough Love Doesn’t Work for a Perfectionist

    Posted in Confessions, Self-Talk, What Just Happened: Personal Anecdotes

    Confession: A Broken Cross Road

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    Its been a difficult year already. I’m writing to let out and release because otherwise I don’t know what else to do. I’m in a point in my life where I don’t know where to go or who to talk to. I don’t want to stay where I am but I’m stuck in a cross road and even more stuck mentally. I’m physically exhausted and mentally going partially insane (I feel like). My anxiety is telling me lies but still tears fall down my face because I am loved and people do care, right?

    I feel my purpose is lost in a financial prison and my degree is just a burnt paper worth nothing. What do I do? Where do I go? Thoughts of worthlessness in creeping back in and it makes my chest hurt. Holding back cries and wanting to scream is where I am. I only wish things will get better. Hopefully they will.

    I have to take care of myself thats one thing I have to keep in mind all the time. I learned a week ago that people only care about their money and their business so jobs are just temporary till you get something better suited for you. Fast food isn’t a healthy environment and I need to move on, but to what?

    My procrastination is only a product of my fear, a deeply rooted fear. I’m scared of failure and I’m scared of rejection. I’m scared of change and I’m scared of stress. I’m scared of my anxiety and I’m scared of getting depressed. I just want to be okay for once, for an extended period of time. I’m tired. I’m tired of worrying all the time about everything.

    Please life bring something good for me.

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    January Bulletins: Support

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    January Bulletins:

    Support as you interact with others. The way you respond in sensitive situations will allow for healing and growth for the ones listening. Learn to understand in the process of supporting. Effective supporting comes with time, patience, and thinking. Use language thoughtfully. How you say something is as important as what you say and when you say it. Support in your body language and in your gestures.

    Support even when you feel you don’t need to. Always support and be a helping hug or compliment. Love in your support.