Posted in Confessions, Creative Writing, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Mental Health, Notes, Reflection, Self-Talk

A Writing Splurge: Let It Out Note 38

When I’m not doing well or if I can’t seem to silence my intrusive thoughts, I write. So, here is me writing right now:

I know you believe no one will want you. You fear being alone. You can’t imagine being loved or appreciated. You don’t see anything but rejection so you’ve given up.

I know you can’t sleep, so you go to bed at like 3. Some tears roll down your face but no one sees.

I know you’re trying to hide in isolation. That’s how you deal with things.

All this is silly, right? You’ll be fine. What you’re sad about is not important, it’ll happen…eventually.

Just focus on you.

Focus on you.

On you.

You.

Me.

Me.

Me and my.

Me and my feelings.

Me and my feelings are valid.

This is how I feel and it’s been spiraling for a while.

I don’t need anyone to want me. This is me, me and now.

I’ve been hurting a lot and keeping it to myself. When I open up, I feel as though what hurts me isn’t important enough.

To be lonely and isolated, to not feel hope, love, or purpose.

That right there is the wound that needs mending.

I must love myself to move past this pain that comes from way back when.

I am important.

I don’t need validation.

I embody my purpose.

I am powerful.

I am worthy.

Love flows freely in my life.

So I know.

I know.

I just needed a moment to let all this out…again.

Posted in Creations, Creative Writing, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Mental Health, Potential and Worth, Reflection, Self-Talk

Rite in the Rain: The Waiting Game

Mind is flooded with questions. Ones that I can’t answer. The type that is out of my control. It’s like…how come I haven’t seen any rainbows? Maybe some miracles?
Love?
No?

Just for maybe five seconds, some flowers to represent the “well done.”

I guess I’m just emotionally exhausted.

Adulthood draining me and my subconscious.

A constant cycle of letting myself out to dry after endless tears feel like a thunderstorm.

I’m drenched with the “Whys” and “if.”

In my stomach the lightning of not feeling good enough.
I feel it strike all the way to my chest. Not killing me though but maybe it should.

…Perhaps one day, when I’m not looking, peace will knock at my doorstep ready to move in with me.
The sky will be clear.
The rain passed away.
All simply because I deserve it.
I deserve to be loved.
I deserve to feel peace.
I deserve the bouquet of flowers ready for me.
All because I deserve to be happy too.
…Until then I wait as I sit in the rain.

Posted in Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Mental Health, Other Accomplishments, Potential and Worth

You are Invited to Take My Beginners Writing Course on TabletWise!

I’m inviting you to take my beginners writing class, “The Power of I: Learn to Write your Life, Instantly Find your Voice, and Creatively Express your Mind Daily” on TabletWise.com, a top health site that provides access to thousands of health and personal development classes

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In “The Power of I:”

  • Students will learn how to utilize their voices to create creative pieces. They will be able to do so using their personal experiences, interests, hopes, perspectives, and ideas they are passionate about.
  • Students will brainstorm writing prompts, ideas, and interests to catalyst creative writing pieces.
  • Students will learn how to utilize the writing resources around them, both on digital interfaces as well as physical writing materials, to influence their creative process and vulnerability.
  • Students will establish writing goals and list writing topics for a series of creative and expressive writing pieces.
  • Students will write a series creative piece in any genre/form they would like (quote, poem, article, list of thoughts, visual, note) that reflects personal experiences, interests, hopes, perspectives, and ideas they feel passionate about.

Excited about expressing yourself and want to navigate a lasting writing habit? This class will help in exploring creative and expressive writing as a lens to building your voice, confidence, and perspective.

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Posted in Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration

To the Ones Struggling Silently

Even to the ones who hold the title of different, who struggle silently.

To the ones who push positively.

To the ones that show bravery although unaccepted.

The ones who feel unwanted.

The ones that cry alone at night.

The ones who struggle to keep up.

The ones who wish they were seen.

The ones who weren’t anyone’s favorite.

The ones who hustled to get what they needed.

The ones overcoming constantly.

The ones never in the spotlight.

The ones who don’t get acknowledged or thanked.

You are seen, you are important, you are valuable all on your own.

Your life holds purpose and all you do will reap its benefits.

***Because I’ve been struggling to see my worth and value, I write this piece as encouragement to all who feel like I do.

Posted in Creations, Creative Writing, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Potential and Worth, Power

Here’s to…

There are moments where I sit and write and whatever flows out becomes something of its own. I want to make a toast to everything that’s been good to me, that’s shown me who I am even in conflict and discomfort. This is me. A work in progress, a never-ending process.

Continuously work on yourself even if the reality is uncomfortable….

Posted in Events, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Mental Health, Potential and Worth, Power, Reflection, Self-Care, Self-Talk

“This is Me” Reflection: Self-Reflection is Powerful

To acknowledge, reflect, visualize, create, and share goals, aspirations, next steps, and working points are the backbone of improvement and progress. “This is Me” opened up a space of opportunity to understand not only who you are, but also what you want. To be able to pick images, quotes, letters, words and symbols that reveal and mirror what it is you want to accomplish takes strength and dedication.

The Event

Who am I?

Before building our vision boards, I came up with a small diagram to get everyone to think of different angles to approach the “who am I?” question. While this is the most complex question to ask yourself, visualizing different parts of your identity can help to jump into ideas about goals, achievements, feelings, strengths, limiting beliefs, toxic tendencies, memories, things you’ve learned, and where you want to go.

It’s not only useful to think up goals and how you want to get there but also asking yourself critical questions of ways to improve allows for a grounded and holistic approach to becoming who you want to be. Vision boards allow you to see yourself in all that is you. They show you the space to see past, present, and future possibilities while influencing and reminding you how to get there by reflecting on yourself.

While we tend to focus on one part of our identity, it’s helpful to dig into ourselves and all of our dimensions to answer questions only one part may not be able to answer. Focusing on our career and professional goals can be supplemented by our mental and spiritual strengths to place ourselves in work environments that fit us. What do we actually want? How can we improve and become better versions of ourselves by tapping into all of who we are? We are a complete being, therefore we must look at everything that makes us a whole.

The Boards

The more we looked at our identity’s focal points and where we were currently, the more we were able to grab images that mirrored how we wanted to approach our visions. I was excited to see how much work was put into visualizing the “who am I?” question. With only a limited amount of time, we were able to build and dive into ourselves to create works of art that symbolized us and what we wanted to accomplish next.

I’m extremely grateful for those who came out to “This is Me.” We answered big questions, reflected on who we wanted to be and where we want to go, while also being gentle and progressive with our progress.

Moving Forward

As I become more and more of myself every day, I see and appreciate how far I’ve come. Understanding and witnessing others in their goals, feelings, and aspirations helped me to see myself in mine. While I will always be a work in progress, I must also look at how much progress I’ve made. With all that I want to accomplish I get stuck in how much I need to do instead of appreciating the process.

I’ve learned to love and see myself as so much bigger than ever imagined. I say “I can” more and I’m excited to see where I go next. “This is Me” showed me to appreciate everything about my identity even the things I need to improve. I am me in everything that I am and will continue to work toward becoming more of myself.

Stay tuned for more events and reflections.

Posted in Confessions, Creative Writing, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration

Get Out Of Your Head

They say you’re always in your head

Thinking up something
Breaking something apart
They say you’re always in your head
Creating a world of your own
A la la land of sorts
Creating solutions to problems over and over
It becomes a problem
Making you something that is a bit extra
I say you’re extra-ordinary
The creative space that’s filled with something that’s a bit extra
You talk too much
You dream too much
You are a problem
The way you can craft out the ideas that make you curious
Every thought you have you say out loud
You’re annoying
You’re sensitive
They say you’re always in your head
You feel
You know
You see
You examine
You speak
They say it makes you annoying
Get out of your head
It’s nothing
You want something to be more than it is
You want to experience the world that’s in your head
You keep going
Keep talking
Keep trying
They tell you to stop
You’re dragging the issue
You know it’s because of the extra you have in you
Creating solutions to problems over and over
You care too much
You love too much
You’re sorry a lot
You wish you were perfect
It’s because you’re always in your head
You see how invested you get
You want so much more than what is being offered
You want them to share their world with you
And when they don’t, your world gets filled with gaps and spaces
You want something extra because you are extra
It’s because…you’re always in your head
Posted in Events, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Mental Health, Potential and Worth, Power, Self-Care, Self-Talk, The Mighty

New York City SparklyWarTanks and The Mighty Event!

Im so excited to announce that I will be hosting The Mighty Mic, an open mic creative event where we all are mighty together. In this event, we will express ourselves in our strength as we discuss our anxiety and depression. The mic is open to those who want to share their stories, poems, songs, articles, speeches; whatever 5-minute piece they would want others to hear. This is a safe space where we will be ourselves, share, and build community!

If you would like to come, please refer to this Facebook Event link and click the “going” option if you would be joining me or even “interested” if you just need to readjust your schedule!

We will have so much fun as we share our stories and build confidence in our journey as we learn we are not alone!

Details are on the flyer above!

Posted in Creative Writing, Declarations, Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration, Potential and Worth, Power, Self-Talk

#Writeitdown Declaration to Live by and Internalize: It is My Choice

I will make decisions based on what’s best for me and who I am.

I will know myself, love myself, and not work simply to survive.

I will give myself time and be patient with my process.

I will hold my head up when my answer is no and proudly keep striving for what’s best for me.

I will work hard and keep looking.

I will know who I am in this process.

I will not live for anyone else but myself.

My mistakes will be my own and I will take responsibility for my life.

I will be great.

I know I can be great.

#livinginyour20s #earlylifedecisionmaking