Hi Lovely People 🤗💌,
I’m super excited to announce the launch of my sticker shop, Motivation by SparklyWarTanks, on UnpolishedJourney.com!
You can also follow my shops Instagram page where I will be posting the available stickers, new arrivals, changes, etc.:
** This post will also be it’s on tab and page here on Sparklywartanks.com
When I’m not doing well or if I can’t seem to silence my intrusive thoughts, I write. So, here is me writing right now:
I know you believe no one will want you. You fear being alone. You can’t imagine being loved or appreciated. You don’t see anything but rejection so you’ve given up.
I know you can’t sleep, so you go to bed at like 3. Some tears roll down your face but no one sees.
I know you’re trying to hide in isolation. That’s how you deal with things.
All this is silly, right? You’ll be fine. What you’re sad about is not important, it’ll happen…eventually.
Just focus on you.
Focus on you.
Me and my.
Me and my feelings.
Me and my feelings are valid.
This is how I feel and it’s been spiraling for a while.
I don’t need anyone to want me. This is me, me and now.
I’ve been hurting a lot and keeping it to myself. When I open up, I feel as though what hurts me isn’t important enough.
To be lonely and isolated, to not feel hope, love, or purpose.
That right there is the wound that needs mending.
I must love myself to move past this pain that comes from way back when.
I am important.
I don’t need validation.
I embody my purpose.
I am powerful.
I am worthy.
Love flows freely in my life.
So I know.
I just needed a moment to let all this out…again.
Yes, I’ve been rejected.
Yes, I’ve been ghosted.
Yes, I’ve been ignored.
Yes, I’ve been pushed to the side.
Also, yes, I thought because this happened so often I was somehow unlovable, ugly, unworthy of attention or love. I thought I deserved this because something was “wrong” with me and I needed to “fix” myself so others would want me.
25 years and counting and now I know that I am not a reflection of how I was treated, of the countless times I didn’t feel good enough. I know now I am worthy of love, affection, and attention. This does not mean, however, that no one will reject, ghost, or push me to the side; but this does mean that I have the choice to not allow someone else’s behavior to reflect how I see my worth.
My worth and value are intrinsic. No one can take away my worth.
So, if you ever find yourself questioning your worth because of how someone else treated you, STOP. Always remember that you are worthy, enough, valuable, lovable, and beautiful. No one can take those ineffaceable things from you.
The more you learn to love yourself, the easier it will become to not allow other people’s actions to sway how you see everything you already are.
Have you ever felt yourself beginning to “spiral?” What is “spiraling?” How can you regain control and focus when you find yourself overthinking into an emotional and uncomfortable place mentally?
Find out in my Defying Shadows article!
Pushing to a workable perspective means knowing who we are apart from the struggles we face; knowing we are much more than the hardship we experience.
As we progress, we must first declare what we are more than. Whether it’s that one negative thought, that mental health condition, the low self-esteem, or the chronic pain, WE ARE MORE.
We are multifaceted, talented, spectacular warriors that regardless of what we experience, we are still more than and we keep going.
This is what I am more than:
- I am more than those negative thoughts.
- I am more than depression.
- I am more than anxiety.
- I am more than low self-esteem.
- I am more than self-doubt.
- I am more than worrying.
- I am more than isolation.
Tell me what you are more than.
Using this @riteintherain journal and pen I will write in all types of weathers, in my bad rainy days and good sunny ones, on the days that are challenging, I will write.
Today I will remind myself that I am enough.
Enough on my own without the attention of others.
Enough even when it’s hard to get out of bed.
Enough to eat.
Enough to write.
I will always be enough.
What are your goals? What do you want to accomplish short term or long term?
Goals are what keep us on track. We set goals to hold ourselves accountable for our time and effort. Goals can be personal, professional, spiritual, etc. Visualize what you want to do and create goals that match that vision. Plan as many short term goals as you need to work toward your bigger vision.
Reminder: Be mindful of your limits and self-care when creating goals. Be realistic. Create as many smaller goals as you need to work toward what you want. It’s also okay to network and talk to others about your vision. Seek help.
To-Do List Reflection
- Goal 1: Keep self-care a priority.
- Make sure to get enough sleep.
- Drink tea to calm my nerves and anxiety.
- Eat fruits and veggies and keep junk food at a minimum.
- Ask for help when needed.
- Keep busy and go outside.
- Goal 2: Creating different avenues of income.
- Research different writing and non-writing opportunities.
- Plan more Mighty events to host.
- Create more online courses.
- Sticker shop!
- Create a writing calendar.
- Write 2 articles a month.
- Write content for SparklyWarTanks at least 3 times a week.
- Create new projects.
- Keep up with creating activities to post on The Mighty.
What are you overcoming? What are you resolving within yourself? Is there any progress in parts of you that you wish to improve? What does that progress look like?
In overcoming obstacles or challenges, it’s important to be gentle with yourself and the process. Relief will follow the more comfortable you become with the discomfort of change. Overcoming is the continuous work that comes with adjusting to growth.
Reflection: Of the major obstacles I work on daily, building my self-esteem, improving in confidence, and establishing that I’m important are the top three. I’m constantly working on and overcoming the urge to isolate myself because of these obstacles and I’ve come so far!
Goal: Getting to a place where I don’t hold myself back in any way. I want to be able to exert confidence in a way that reveals the power I know I have.
You can find this reflection card on my Mighty page here.