Want to know how to feel your emotions and grow in self-awareness?
Start by understanding how your emotions feel in your body. Do you feel anxiety or fear in your stomach? Maybe stress as headaches or body fatigue? Identify the body sensation with the emotion that goes with it. Listen to what your body is telling you and learn how to honor your body’s needs.
What is your body telling you today?
My body is telling me to slow down and not push myself too hard. My body is also telling me to work on my insomnia and get more rest.
What are 3 goals you would like to set this month?
Note: Goals can be simple, complex, changed or even adjusted as time passes. It’s totally okay if you decide that a goal you’ve set isn’t the right fit for you. Goals are about you and what you want to accomplish for yourself.
My Reflection
The three goals I would like to set this month are:
1. To be gentle with myself, prioritize my mental health, and not compare myself to others.
2. To work on my certification and complete 4 tests.
3. To remind myself every day that I’m worthy, I’m enough, I’m doing the best that I can, and just because something hasn’t happened doesn’t mean it will never happen.
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I made this and put it on my wall as a reminder that all of me is free.
I am not trapped to the confines of expectations. I am not obligated to hide my words as to adjust to the comfort of others. I am free from the limiting and ruminating thoughts. I am free to make my own decisions. I am free to be myself in every way. I exude excitement to share my interests and what makes me who I am. I am present. I hold space. My voice matters. I have good ideas. I do what’s best for me. I give myself permission to be free.
-Bad days don’t make you weak. -Struggling with your mental health does not make you weak. -Flare-ups or breakouts from conditions or illnesses does not make you weak. -Feeling overwhelmed does not make you weak. -Feeling angry, frustrated, guilty, lonely, hopeless or ashamed does not make you weak. -Mistakes don’t make you weak. -Exhaustion or overstimulation does not make you weak. -Having limits does not make you weak. -Taking breaks does not make you weak. -Changing your mind does not make you weak. -Having needs does not make you weak. -Sensitivities don’t make you weak.
The more I reflect, the more I realize how much energy it’s taking to process the grief that’s these past three years has weighed on my body, my heart, and my spirit. And even though I push past every time, I’m still tired.
Is anyone else like me? Where navigating the World is overwhelming some days. Where I try my best, but still it’s hard not to compare my life to others. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to live life as if I was another?
Where you asks the questions that don’t matter, but still blossom into ruminating thoughts. Like, will they accept me? Or, Can someone love me, too? Maybe, will I ever really feel free to be myself, 100% myself, without worrying that I’m too weird or different for the eyes that witness me? Perhaps it’s the sicknesses that plague my body that dictate my fate after all?
Who can love me, too? I ask myself as I wake up in an anxious puddle of sweat dripping down my burdened shoulders.
Maybe, just maybe it’s possible. The love. The acceptance. The bliss of freedom to be myself without fear.
I ask the universe to allow me that freedom. Right now, I manifest that freedom. I am free from the drought of shame, grief, and guit. I am worthy of the love I seek because it seeks me too. I am ready to receive.
Healing Letters of Reflection: [Topics- Codependency and Anxious Attachment]
I understand now. I understand what I was meant to learn. How I was in pain too. But, I was trying to make you love me, even though you didn’t want to. I’m sorry. You were in pain like me. The cycles of run and chase. I saw something I knew I could love, so I latched onto that feeling. I was wrong though. Because, I was in pain and needed to manage and take care of my heart first. I needed to love myself more and I didn’t. I wanted to love you because I saw myself in you. Maybe loving you would help me love myself? No. That’s not how that works. Being alone was scary. It was a step into an oblivion of nothingness. What am I to do with all this pain I feel into an unknown future? Can I do it? Wow, do I even believe in myself? Who am I? What do I even want? It’s the ideas, the potential, the feeling. It’s the fear of changing into a person I don’t know.
…Well I’m that person now. The person I was scared to become because, who is she? She can see. She gets it. She understands.
I understand now. That I was in pain. I was panicking. Trauma responses left and right. Trying to fix. Fixate. Control. Overexplain. Change someone else. I was the one who needed changing. But, that’s okay…because I understand now. So, thank you. You helped me to see, because everything was foggy back then. I hope everything is good with you. I hope you can understand, too.
A fun fact about me is I LOVE comfort items like pillows, soft blankets, and stuffed animals.
One important detail about me is that resting is really essential for my mental and physical health. Being highly sensitive, I burn out quicker then others.
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