Category: Keep Moving: Motivation and Inspiration
Freedom Quote: Ignite Your Power
I felt it bubbling inside, so I locked it away
It felt like a monster waiting to show its face
When I took out my pen and started to write, there it was again
The monster, my passion, my power it was locked within
I’m still afraid to let it out, I have to keep it in
Who knows what will happen when I let it roam free
I can’t let that monster out, the power inside of me
WarZone Quote: Set Yourself Free
Let Love in Again
I see how hurt changed you and made you block happiness from coming in. I see how your mannerisms have shifted and how you act like nothing will ever be different. But you see, something good will happen and it will be just for you. Let it in when it does. Pain and hurt shouldn’t last forever. Letting it persist is a choice. Whatever it is, whatever has happened, whatever they did, let it go, don’t blame or push away good that’s coming to you. You have to be happy. You have to let the opportunity in, for your sake. You need to set yourself free from that misery. Let love in. Let it help you feel again.
The Girl in the Shadow: Introduction
Here is an introduction to a series of short stories I will write. The Girl in the Shadow is a part of my creative process to grasp and understand what its like to be an introvert and an empath. Two new concepts to me. Also a part of SparklyWarTanks’ Writing to Heal, this writing will be both encouraging, bazaar, fictional, and autobiographical. She is something new to me.
And I tell the story of the girl in the shadow. She sees and feels everything, from the hurts that you feel to the tears that have dried away. She encourages those who are often forgot about and left to decay in their own sad minds and weary souls. She tells the stories of those left behind and outcast.
Shes in the shadows observing. Shes an introvert but feels all that is around her, the vibration of the strangers, the betrayal of friends, and struggles of her family. She’s empathic and can’t help but know the emotions and strains of those around her. An energy she can’t escape. She’s been running for so long, but now she just sits, watches, and writes. She writes down the emotions and hurt, and flips it. She carries with her in silent prayers the promised happiness and hope lost and buried with the dead end situation and crusted forgiveness. She’s the stranger rooting for you and the one who cries when you find yourself lonely. She feels for you when you feel the most alone. She knows how it feels. No one sees her either.
She’s learning what it means to be outside and to be strange. To not fit in. She’s learning what love is, and hate, and fear. She’s learning pain, and grief, and depression and anxiety. She’s learning what’s shes known all her life except this time she sees it in other people.
The Girl in The Shadow Introduction
WarZone Quote: Find Self in the Midst of Chaos
Excerpt From my “Blood Honesty” Portion of SWT Writing Therapy
So I’m in the process of adding a new portion of SWT writing called “Blood Honesty.” This will be a collection of therapy writing, creative writing pieces and reflections that helps me recall memories that has come up over and over. I relate how these memories have boiled into hurt and how I operate with people. This writing will be in my next book project “Writing to Heal: Power of Written Word.”
This is an excerpt from a Blood Honesty post that I wrote on November 27th:
The concept of love is so underrated, mixed and confused with all emotions felt by people. But love, real love, unconditional love felt by someone that doesn’t have to love you is deep, its true, and its the most genuine of human emotion and character. When real love happens, when you see it unravel in the ways that it works wholeheartedly is profound, complicated, confusing, and impossibly possible (now you know why people cling to the trope and figure of Jesus Christ). It’s this idea that makes people want to live longer. It’s this concept of love despite the fear of disappointment and inevitable death that keeps and makes peace and inclusivity possible. The absence of love causes mental health issues and division, just like the absence of light is darkness and loneliness. Conditional love (masked emotional confusions and uncertainty ), the love that is so commonly mistaken for unconditional love (genuine love) is what we don’t know how to feel or what to do when we feel it (unless its from a parent or guardian to a child which can still have complication). How crazy it sounds that this can be felt by us, by people, especially people who are different, is what we need (and what is taught in every central religion essentially) that people don’t understand and cant contemplate. We need this love toward each other, everyone, not just people who are like us or share similar ideological, political, or religious views. We need love despite what separates us and what makes us distant from one another. We need love. Unconditional love.
Postage from my Memory
Pain
It’s persistent, consistent, and loyal, it comes to you when you least expect it, it comes to you in the middle of the night and stays to keep you company. It holds you while you cry and lingers around until you try to feel better. You argue with it, you convince yourself it’s not real, you push it away. It comes back when you thought it finally left. You miss it when you see that’s it’s gone because it was the only persistent feeling you’ve ever had. Can you be patient with it and not want it to come back? How can you get so used to how it feels that you can identify it so clearly? Its presence allows you to know you are still alive and you still can feel. Is it scary that if it goes away it could mean you healed or fell numb to its presence enough to internalize it? Do you accept it, push it away, hide it, or try to rid of it? Pain. Is the presence of pain good so you have patience with it or should you try to take it away? Does it go away by itself or do you do something about it?
War Zone Quote: Remove Toxicity from your Interactions
Sometimes you can see someone’s intentions or motives from one conversation—perhaps in the way they talk to you, the way they phrase their sentences and how much effort they put in having the conversation—or in the way they look at you and how much of themselves they choose to put into their comments, criticisms, and advice. What’s scary, especially with strangers and even people you’ve known for a long time, is the malice that’s behind the words of those people. One phrase can make you feel worthless, some criticisms offend who you are and what you like to do, and suggestions turn into demands to change who you are to fit who they want you to be. Whatever the circumstance, whatever the situation know how to identify genuineness and when someone has an agenda. You deserve to have genuine friendships or any type of relationships. You deserve to be able to freely make connections with people without the fear of ill intention or harm to your mental health. Don’t stick around if you see this type of verbal and emotional abuse. Leave, just leave. You are worth more than that. You are in control of those situations and interactions.
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