Stand firm and know that what you feel and experience is valid. There is no checklist or standard to what makes your story enough to cause pain, growth, or transformation. Wherever you are in your journey, whatever frustrations, confusions, turmoil, or changes influence how you are perceiving the events that happen to you is your call to make. There is no shame in feeling what you feel.
No need to compare yourself to anyone, downplay what you are feeling, or over-explain any part of your story. You are valid in whatever stage you are in. Receive the support or help that is necessary to get you where you need/want to go in your growth and healing.
Note to self:
The proof of worthiness is self-acceptance. To be worthy is to accept all that is you unapologetically. There is no need to go above and beyond to convince anyone of your greatness. You are great and beautiful all on your own. Be yourself.
Accept all that is you. Become comfortable with your self-worth separate from others and how they treat you or how much work you finished.
Yes, I’ve been rejected.
Yes, I’ve been ghosted.
Yes, I’ve been ignored.
Yes, I’ve been pushed to the side.
Also, yes, I thought because this happened so often I was somehow unlovable, ugly, unworthy of attention or love. I thought I deserved this because something was “wrong” with me and I needed to “fix” myself so others would want me.
25 years and counting and now I know that I am not a reflection of how I was treated, of the countless times I didn’t feel good enough. I know now I am worthy of love, affection, and attention. This does not mean, however, that no one will reject, ghost, or push me to the side; but this does mean that I have the choice to not allow someone else’s behavior to reflect how I see my worth.
My worth and value are intrinsic. No one can take away my worth.
So, if you ever find yourself questioning your worth because of how someone else treated you, STOP. Always remember that you are worthy, enough, valuable, lovable, and beautiful. No one can take those ineffaceable things from you.
The more you learn to love yourself, the easier it will become to not allow other people’s actions to sway how you see everything you already are.
Using this @riteintherain journal and pen I will write in all types of weathers, in my bad rainy days and good sunny ones, on the days that are challenging, I will write.
Today I will remind myself that I am enough.
Enough on my own without the attention of others.
Enough even when it’s hard to get out of bed.
Enough to eat.
Enough to write.
I will always be enough.
Enough only implies to the extent that you reach minimum capacity, just making it, but you always make that level. You never go below that enough level and because you are always enough you are more than enough.
You are good enough.
You are strong enough.
You are brave enough.
You are beautiful enough.
You are enough.
You are always enough.
You are more, you are more than enough.