February: Perseverance and Confidence
May: Self-Care and Self-Appreciation
June: Talent and Creativity
August: Moving Forward, Progression and Transformation
October: Compassion and Kindness
November: Strength and Power
December: Endings, Beginnings, and Continuations
Building perspective is what builds character and what allows you to move to the realm of transformation. To understand others is to understand yourself in a community and as an individual. To understand control, perseverance, confidence, purpose, self-acceptance, self-care, self-appreciation, talent, creativity, love, moving forward, progression, empathy, compassion, kindness, strength, power, and what it means to continue, end and begin in order to transform into yourself. While you look into yourself, how you experience life, and what it means to build your identity in your individuality is to explore yourself in concepts and ideas. Who am I? What do I like? How do I love? How do I become better? How do I work on my mental health? How do I grow?
Continue in your life, in your journey, and in your purpose. Being alive is a purpose in itself. Be yourself. Build yourself. Love yourself.
I will be positive and kind to myself.
I will lift myself up.
I will be my biggest fan.
I will learn from my mistakes.
I will be better.
How I see myself, how I speak to myself, how I progress will be positive.
I will be stronger.
I will be powerful.
I will stay calm.
I will become more and more of myself.
Note 20: Yesterday I probably had the worst anxiety attack I’ve had in a couple months and in the wake of that reality another struggle has also come up from the ashes. I haven’t felt depressed in a while, but today its come back like it never left. The negative thoughts and reminders, the constant nagging of hopelessness and lonliness, and the feeling to isolate myself all came back.
When this happens I have to write something, reminding myself that my life is worth it, and I have a purpose even though I think otherwise. I have to tell myself that some people do care about my existance and I should keep on living.
Even though its difficult to be right now I have to remind myself that life is something precious and sacred. I am beautiful. I matter. I am a life worth living.
Being ready is an important part of progress and change. If you’re not ready then its difficult process in order to overcome and learn from moments and circumstances that you encounter everyday.
Get up ready.
Always be ready.
This is a letter from the one that kills herself trying to be the best because shes always been in the shadows.
The second best.
The girl whos been rejected.
The girl who developed anxiety because she overcompensates and overdoes it.
The one who was so tedious in her actions that she gets nervous when shes not perfect.
The one who got up extra early to be on time but all she gained from that was loss of sleep.
The one who stood up all night studying and skipped breakfast.
The one who raised her hand every class.
The one who was the weakest link.
The one who couldn’t go to graduate school.
The one whos mental illnesses crippled her to mental paralysis. Dark. In a daze. She just wanted to be...the best.
The best is an illusion. The best is fake. The best is a lie. No one is the best. Everyone has talents. Everyone is really good at some things, and not so good in others. You have something about you thats great. That doesn’t make you better, or the best, it makes you who you are.
Get rid of the notion that you need to be the best. The best is a disease. Take your time. Go slow. Find yourself. You’ll then realize the best is already in you.
I will continue to love and live. I will not look behind me. I will continue to look forward.
You give yourself your strength and you give yourself your power. Your power and strength is based on your ability to know yourself in every level, aspect, and perspective. As you grow yourself, you grow your strength and the more powerful you will become. Strength does not come in complacency so work on yourself daily, grow in your own shoes. Become yourself. The more of you that you become, the more power you will then see.